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09 July 2017 @ 04:50 am
Welp  
I may have Borderline Personality Disorder.



That...

Explains a lot.
 
 
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13 May 2017 @ 09:07 am
lmao I hate those moments when I post an update and then see '1 User Viewing' so I check out of curiosity and it's someone I dislike. Like get out of my run :V

I know I shouldn't be this way but at the same time, I am a person and there will always be people I dislike and never want to be reminded of. People can call it childish and say I need to be more modern and 'understand your bullies because they're hurting too in some way' but lmao fuck it. I've been bullied enough. Some people are just dicks and some people I just don't want to see again. End of story.
 
 
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06 May 2017 @ 07:15 am
Okay, I updated and left a note that I'm going to be slowing down my run and such and idk. How I hate talking to people, how I don't like comments, etc.

Hopefully that will make people like... leave me alone? Seriously, I only like the commentor's on AO3 because they're really nice girls. On the forums, it always feels like a competition, and I just want people to like... I don't know, realize my stuff sucks? Or that my terrible garbage shouldn't be encouraged or supported.

I don't know. I'm a messed up human being, and I sort of don't want to get better because as much as I hate what I put myself through, it's better than going back to being that kid who sits there while everyone else talks about themselves and laughs and wants you to validate them. But as soon as you say something about yourself, it's ignored. Because people don't actually give a shit about you. They care about how well you can honey your words to them.

*lays on bed*

Plus, if I get attached to people and they end up realizing how shitty I am and leave, it just damages me more than anything. I'd rather be alone than go through that over and over and over again. :V
 
 
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03 May 2017 @ 12:30 pm
So, I paid for a year of no ads and more icons because it was LJ's 18th. I mean, I use adblock, so it seems sort of useless, but I really should be using this place more. I mean, I hate talking about myself and my day because it seems so useless, but I wouldn't mind documenting some thoughts.

Mostly my squeals and such when it comes to my run or what I'm doing in Skyrim. Fanfiction ideas, writing stuff, etc. Stuff that sort of benefits me and prevents me from like, seeking online friendships, haha, since I think I've established they don't work for me, no matter what I do. This journal proves it in spades.

So, yeah. Hopefully I use this more. Like I say every year :V
 
 
 
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31 March 2017 @ 07:09 am
*slides onto the floor*

I love when my self-worth falls into a hole to like... never return. I woke up incredibly depressed today and just miserable with myself (although I can still fake I'm a normal person) and when I sort of... rant about it on a forum, I suddenly get "Hey, I can be an outlet to you."

Like... no... I'd rather.. just stay depressed okay. It's not like I'm an exceptional human being who is worthy of redeeming myself and shit. Just let me wallow in my self-hatred and zero self-esteem. I'm sure in a couple months I'll be alright.

Or I won't, but who cares.

Besides, just all of the sudden talking to a person like.. I've already determined I cannot make internet friends for the life of me. Everyone that I meet only gives a shit about themselves and not really about me or what I deal with, so what's the point.

Just ugh. I'll say it again: living is hard.
 
 
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24 April 2016 @ 07:02 am
I have a lot of time on my hands now. And having such, I've decided to do some trophy hunting this summer between reading and writing fanfiction. So, these are just a list of my goals.

1. Playstation All-Stars Trophies:
a. Complete Arcade Mode with Sweet Tooth
b. Complete Arcade Mode with Spike
c. Complete Arcade Mode with Ratchet
d. Complete Arcade Mode with Jak
e. Complete Arcade Mode with Sackboy
f. Complete Arcade Mode with Raiden
g. Complete Arcade Mode with Heihachi
h. Complete Arcade Mode with Big Daddy
i. Complete Arcade Mode with Dante
j. Complete Arcade Mode with Evil Cole
k. Complete Arcade Mode with Sir Daniel

L.A. Noire
a. Find and Drive Every Car in the City
b. Find and Inspect all Gold Film Reels
c. Follow Candy Edwards without using cover or incognito
d. Rack up $47,000 in penalties during a single story mission
e. Drive more than 194.7 miles

Skyrim
a. Pick 50 Locks and 50 Pockets
b. Bounty of 1,000 gold in all nine holds

Uncharted: Drake's Fortune
Go through the Game First

Uncharted 2: Among Thieves
Go through the Game First

Uncharted 3: Drake's Deception
Go through the Game First

Far Cry 4
Finish Valley of the Yetis
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23 April 2016 @ 02:06 am
So, I'm done. First year is down. Couple of things:

1. Had to go to my program head and tell him shit about one of my classmates. Have no idea if said classmate is going to come back. My hope is no.

2. Think I have a crush on one of my teachers. It sort of sucks.

3. I still have work to do. But I got a new laptop to do it.

I may elaborate later but that's the update right now. But I'm done. Whee.
 
 
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03 April 2016 @ 09:06 am
Samurai Warriors 4-II Trophies

Trophy Guide
1. Claim victory in all Story Mode battles using all Characters
2. Reach Level 100 in Survival Mode
3. Obtain a Rare Weapon
4. Obtain 20 different Rare Weapons
5. Obtain All Rare Weapons
6. Learn all of the Epiphany Skills
7. Attain an Objective Clerance Rate of 100%
8. Unlock 100% of all Events


Survival Mode Challenges
Chamber of Trials - S Rank
Chamber of Riches - S Rank (Use Gold + Hideyoshi's Epiphany)
Chamber of Agility - S Rank (Use Kanbei's Epiphany with Speed + Conversation)
Chamber of Death - S Rank


Rare Weapons
Yukimura Sanada | Keiji Maeda | Nobunaga Oda | Mitsuhide Akechi | Goemon Ishikawa | Kenshin Uesugi | Oichi | Okuni | Kunoichi | Magoichi Saika | Shingen Takeda | Masamune Date | No | Hanzo Hattori | Ranmaru Mori | Hideyoshi Toyotomi | Yoshimoto Imagawa | Tadakatsu Honda | Ina | Ieyasu Tokugawa | Mitsunari Ishida | Nagamasa Azai | Sakon Shima | Yoshihiro Shimazu | Ginchiyo Tachibana | Kanetsugu Naoe | Nene | Kotaro Fuma | Musashi Miyamoto | Toshiie Maeda | Motochika Chosokabe | Gracia | Kojiro Sasaki | Katsuie Shibata | Kiyomasa Kato | Kanbei Kuroda | Muneshige Tachibana | Kai | Ujiyasu Hojo | Hanbei Takenaka | Motonari Mori | Lady Aya | Masanori Fukushima | Takatora Todo | Naotora Ii | Munenori Yagyu | Nobuyuki Sanada | Yoshitsugu Otani | Hisahide Matsunaga | Kojuro Katakura | Kagekatsu Uesugi | Takakage Kobayakawa | Koshosho | Toyohisa Shimazu | Lady Hayakawa | Naomasa Ii

Ephiphany Skills
Yukimura Sanada | Keiji Maeda | Nobunaga Oda | Mitsuhide Akechi | Goemon Ishikawa | Kenshin Uesugi | Oichi | Okuni | Kunoichi | Shingen Takeda | No | Hanzo Hattori | Ranmaru Mori | Ieyasu Tokugawa | Mitsunari Ishida | Nagamasa Azai | Yoshihiro Shimazu | Ginchiyo Tachibana | Nene | Musashi Miyamoto | Toshiie Maeda | Motochika Chosokabe | Gracia | Kojiro Sasaki | Katsuie Shibata | Kiyomasa Kato | Muneshige Tachibana | Kai | Ujiyasu Hojo | Motonari Mori | Lady Aya | Masanori Fukushima | Hisahide Matsunaga | Takakage Kobayakawa | Toyohisa Shimazu

Level 50
Naotora Ii
Kagekatsu Uesugi
Magoichi Saika


Objectives

Clash of Wills
Finished! All Events, Characters & Objectives Clear!

Trials of Trust
Finished! All Events, Characters & Objectives Clear!

Sparks of Rebellion
Finished! All Events, Characters & Objectives Clear!

Love and Fear
Finished! All Events, Characters & Objectives Clear!

Visions of Hope
Finished! All Events, Characters & Objectives Clear!

Tides of Fate
Finished! All Events, Characters & Objectives Clear!

Signs of Greatness
Finished! All Events, Characters & Objectives Clear!

Duty and Respect
Finished! All Events, Characters & Objectives Clear!

Wisdom and Grace (All Events Cleared)
3. Conquest of Shikoku
4. Conquest of Kyushu
5. Conquest of Odawara

Friends and Rivals (3 Events Cleared)
1. Seige of Iwaya and Mt. Tachibana Castles
2. Conquest of Kyushu
3. Conquest of Odawara
4. Battle of Kuzegawa
5. Battle of Sekigahara

Pledges of Honor (1 Event Missing)
1. The Great Kanto Defense
2. The Otate Rebellion
3. Battle of Oshi Castle
4. 2nd Battle of Ueda Castle
5. The Osaka Campaign

Bonds of Fealty (1 Event Missing)
1. Battle of Odani Castle
2. Battle of Nagashino
3. Battle of Shizugatake
4. Conquest of Kyushu
5. Battle of Sekigahara

Women of War (3 Events Missing)
1. Battle of Kakegawa Castle
2. Battle of Kannagawa
3. Battle of Shizugatake
4. Battle of the Beauties
5. Gracia's Quest for Freedom


Flights of Fancy
1. Ii Family Vales (8/13)
2. Test of Loyalty (6/9)
3. Ninjas to the Rescue (?/?)
4. Bonds of Matrimony (8/13)
5. Men of Charm Return (5/10)
6. Arioka Castle Battle of Wits (?/?)
7. Return of Honnoji (?/?)
8. Final Showdown at Sekigahara (?/?)
 
 
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03 April 2016 @ 08:29 am
Well, there we go. I finished Samurai Warriors 4 completely. I finally got the Platinum trophy. I'm really proud of that! I love that game and I'm so happy I got the Platinum to show I made the effort to get 100%.

The next ones I want to get is at least 50% on the Uncharted games, 100% on Samurai Warriors Empires, and try to get as much as I can for Samurai Warriors 4-II.

That's basically the only thing I care about right now.